hello everyone,its been a long time since i ever post.
ha,thanks onion for sending me to school and hme each time!hahaaa.and ebing thr whn im sad.
ya,it happend,my mum found out,and she almos send me to police.ha!im super down tht time,not because of this,ut also because of wlaneh.tsk.
i thought i have forgotten you long time ago,bt seriously,i haven.i dont know why,aft you,i felt so devoted to you.ya,im so sad,for falling so deep into you.i did alot of things for you,bt you will never know and so.i told myself each time,tht you alrdy have a gf and you two are very long alrdy,wht for i still cant get over you,but seriously,i cnt.shit!you treated me so gd lat time,and im so touch by you.and the day whn i was sick,you still praised me something and cheer me up,i listen to your story,and you listen to mine,isnt everything great?bt thn,things changed aft tht time,whn i thought you were only playing with me,because youre drunk,so i rejected you.thn everything changed to so differently,esp you.fk you!i hate you now.really.fking ass,dont let me see you anymore,or again,if not i will give you two punches again and say you!and dont you dare to say me bck,because you have no right to do so.bt i think thr wont be a possibility tht i will see you,because,i dont know whn will you be bck thn.i hope youre dead!
recently thr alot of stuffs going ard me,and i dont know whr to start.i just know tht i have let down many people who is ard me,and caring for me.im sorry people,seriously!ha
im at xinyu hse now,and shes doing her make up!hahaa,listening to always be my baby.haha!

hello,i dont know who to trust!hhaaa.
life is so bored.im tired.im so cute!lmao.

hello peeps,
ha.im here.recently theres alot of things going on,and i want to thanks friends for being there,esp those tht im very close with right now(: (stehpy,crystal,and my baobei)
ha!lmao.im lazy to say wht happend or so.and im lazy to post as well!ha.
girlfriend,im sorry tht i didnt rang you up at one ytd,because im busy!haaa.and you finally changed the style of asking people for.
ha.and dear yt.dont worried!i will be alright la dey!ha.i wont be bad.tsk,i felt so touch whn you post tht im worried for me siol.i thought it was suspose to be for ts.ha!dont worry anyway,i wont do stupid stuffss.
and im sorry to my fmaily as well!
ha,im really hungry right now.didnt ate alot of foods recently.i keep skipping brkfast or so.ha!maybe thts a gd method to be on diet.im tired right now,and i haven do anything yet.
and as well,i met into a fking sicko tdy.wlao eh!he followed me to my hse and i dont even know who is he.pissed.thn he talk to me,asked me for sth or so.and i was afraid alright,hes really looking damn pervert!ha.fk.so i reached hme,phoned ws,told him.ha!
thn i played piano.ya,i wanna learn bt cant.thts so dumb.
chatting in msn with marvyn now.and alot more.ha!marvyn is damn fun!bt i cant turn up for tmr i suspose,sorry!
to stpeh,ya.i stil have you all.im not gng to cry again!i love you all too!
to baobei:hey,i love you as well,dont be sad alright?!eesing is here!hahaaa.

hello,
i have been studying very hard,and i guess ,i did.nowadays,i didnt slp in class,i paid attention,esp for bio.jus to pull up my grades.im not sure if im smart,but i know if i work hard,i will get gd grades in turns of reward.i tried my very best to do well,and i think i did,so can you be in the same boat as me and understand tht studying is a very hard thing?put yourself in my shoes,i have to wake up everyday early in the morning,just for school.everyday,i woke up,i told myself tht i didnt wanted to go school,but in the end i went,just because i wanted to study,and i persuaded every of my friends to study.now,i did all my hwks,except for maths,because i cant jolly well find my maths 2 and notebook as well.i think i handed up the wrong bk.so,you wanted me to study,and now,im studying,and youre not beliving me and puting yourself in how i felt.ha,youre such a bad person!i know i had been bad soemtimes,but i still studied and theres arent any bad record in my record.so,do you understand?studying is hard,and i nd time to relax as well.now,even teachers told me,tht i have changed my attitude towards studying,and keep up the gd work,and im happy,becvause teachers seldom praised me like tht.im glad,im happy.i decided to tell you whn i get hme,but thn wht happend in the end?you turned me off.i know i came bck late,but i have my reasons for doing so.the first word you told me as i step into the hse,was tht youre sclding me alrdy.did you hear my reasons?i need time to relax as well as study!thn i told you all the things,but did you believe me?why cant you jsut tell me once tht you believe in me?just because of tht fking accident,and thn you seemed to trust others more than me,even outsiders tht are not very clse to you nowadays!you trusted them,i told you,you dont believ me.tht time you said you trust me,and believe wht i said,because im your daughter,bt thn it doesnt seemed so.because you have been saying and taking the incident as an example to scld me and so.now i realised,why you sclded me for,its because you wanted face.everyone told me tht everyone wld love and care and TRUST their child,but do you?youre baised.you treat him mroe gd than me,seriously,thts wht i felt.now tht everything had changed,and ive adapt to the surroundings and everything,you tried to changed everything again.you tried to turn bck times to those times whn i was in primary school,but you know its hard?its easy for you,because you dont have to conside how i felt.but me,i considered how you felt,because i didnt want you to get worry,i studied hard,because i didnt want you to be sad,i tried to be ggd.because i didnt want you to be alone,i stayed at hme and accompany whnever youre at hme.but how many times are there?you just plan things according to wht you wanted,you wanted to come hme suddenly,and i was scared tht you wld sclded me or so,i went hme early as well.but thn wht?wht happend in the end?fk,rubbish.i know you sometimes did gd things tht were gd to me,i treasured and appreciate it.no matter wht,i still love you all,seriously ,and i hope tht you all too!oneday,we didnt even talked alot,just on phoned,wht can i expect frm you?everysday is the same old phrase,until i can memorise them now.now tht everything had changed alrdy,we dont have to go bck to the past,because its hard for me,really.try thinking in my shoe,i hope it help.
and as for you,i trusted you not to tell them,but instead,you told them.ha,how silly can i be.you even complained me.you said tht was concern,but tht wasnt wht i wanted.dont force me to say anything if i dont feel like saying it out,because its unbearable.i really cant believe tht you backstabbed me on my bck.thts for my own gd?ha,if everythings for my own gd,you shld have listen to me,and not to tell them.concern and care?rubbish,i dont felt it.everyone telling me the same thing,but thn you all dont know wht it is tht exactly happend.i dont want this type,this type of conern and care,i wanted those like my cousins and all those kind.can you all give me?
(ps,im writing this not to make you all feel guilty,but im just stating it out,if really for my own gd,read this and you'll understand wht i wanted and expected frm you all.i know you have been reading my blog sometimes,because you seemed to know alot of things frm here.so read it now,so tht you know whts happening.but dont asked me and talk face to face abt it,because i have alrdy get use to the way whr we comminicate all this problems through sth or so.IM SORRY,BUT I STILL LOVE YOU ALL)
and you,you left me alrdy,wht am i still staying here and thinking of you for?they are right,i shld let you go.since you have her.happy and gd luck!i burned the paper alrdy.i didnt know if its the correct thing and way to do,but i doubt so.
im happy with my friends,my friends accompany and they treat me gd,and they understand me well.i love you all,stephy,xinyi and crystal!
im tired,bye.

hello everyone.
i didnt blog for few days.ya,slacking with the same people and doing the same thing.
so wht?look down on me for doing such things?ha,i dont really care.and why,did you throw my bottle away,i am me.you cant like tht.and you have no link in talking!im so fking frustrated and sad alrdy,and you still scld me?wtf is tht?
ytd,monday.
i didnt went for tuition.aft school slacking with the same ppl,thn at night also,thn i was sad,down and fking fk up.ive cried for 2 hrs,surprisingly,nobody knows,and you even scld me.luckily,there were people who cheered me up and im glad,aft a long cry,and walk and run?i went hme,slp.half way,marvyn is gd,hes a gd person.he cheers people up!and he cheers me up,thanks leonardlee as well,although tht you were abit late,but you still showed your concern to me(:
marvyn,really thanks alot for cheering me up,because aft i read your msg ,i laughed and smiles and im glad.thanks alot,a thousand and hundreds thank you,really.and sry if i didnt reply you,because,perhaps i slept alrdy.
YOURE REALLY A GD FRIEND!I TREASURE YOU!
and so,i slept at night ytd,and i dont wish to continue thn.
today.
go for aces remedial.ya,waited for donavan.thn went sk.ya,you all didnt tell me tht he was there,thn i wont go do tht alrdy.ha!thn someone threw mine away.saw alot people,make alot fo friends.saw melvin as well,and clara and so on.alot!ha.yes,it comes to my mind whr who are those people tht i rmb!ok,i didnt know wht am i saying.so ltr on,cabbed to meet xy,baobei.ha!was glad tht she and her bf was gd alrdy!happy.thn people come giving me money,i didnt know why.dont treat me so gd if you all arent gng to care for me alright?!and sandy,ya,i wld try.i know how you felt,because you told me tht you are heartpain!im so touch alright.ha!
bt who knows wht im thinking now,ha!so,ltr ws ans xy went hme,and left me alone.i asked them to go.idk why,i suddenly dont feel like contacting anyone,and i wish to be alone.and i sms her tht msg.im sry,it was out of rush,i didnt know wht im doing as well,im down.
everyone can say they concern and care for their friends,but who knows who really care,who can be trusted,who are the real friends,who are those tht i can turst and so?nobody knows,because we doesnt know wht theyre thinking,you can said with your mouth,tht you care for me,but thn in your heart,you were just saying it for fun.it hurts alright?!understood?!(ps,its written for friends,but not bf,because i have no bf and crush on anyone)
and wht hurts the most is this,i shld have found it long ago,you loved cared for her?ha,im too dumb,still thinking of contacting you.ha,nvm.its over alrdy.nvm!you know you hurts me the most,seriously.i dont know why,but how can you like tht?ha,over alrdy.so i shall nt care abt you anymore,you this FKER!

hello,
posting posting posting.everythings changed!
ha.leave me alone,let me be alone.ha!i nd to study!and yep,i did all my hwks.ha!im so proud,because its a long time ever since i did my hwks.yes,ive made it into study.ha!so now,im left with half a yr or so,i dont want to retain):
STUDY STUDY STUDY.
& ya,i nd to exercise as well,swimming!ha.sucks man.ive been geting fatter and fatter.yucks!hate it man,so im gng for a diet.ha,cool.bt i dont know if i can make it,ha,because basically,im very lazy!
so now,im left with my 2.4 run,yucks.i hate it man.tsk,bt i have to pass!gogoggo eesing!ha,im crazy uh?played volley ball awhile,and i guess,i wanna play it again.its fun leh!im very hyer now?or the opposite?im nto clear as well,because im half tired half hyper.
ha,ya,first day of school i gt caught for hair!tsk!so unlucky.ha!damn damn damn dman damn.so monday didnt do anything ,tuesday met up with friends and study, wednesday finished my hwk and met up with friends at hg.ha!i was so agitated by thn,because youre always like tht,can change your fking attitude?ha!
nvm thn.reached hme ard 7 plus.
so,can i study well?ha,people told me its only 3mins or so!and i wont be studying aft tht.tsk!cant you all gave some encouraging comments to me!
& ya,ive alot of thoughts running through my mind right now,and i didnt know wht to do to solve them?sucks man!i wanted to stop,yea,i must.thoughts thoughts thoughts,its so irritating.
recently im feeling happy!idk!
im in love with tht song.and shld i use the phone?!